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Tuesday, July 11, 2006
The twisted intriguing ironies of life. Ever wondered how simple life can be, it is a kaleidoscope of emotional roller coaster rides i think, then again, its subjective. there is never just one pure emotion,it is usually a mix of sub-emotions that conjure up a massive emotion, one that is dormineering. then again, it is subjective, and relative to what situations had occured to inculcate such emotions in a certain time frame.if you did not understand that, then don't worry, you're not dumb, i tend to stupify and intimidate people. its basically "chimmed as its termed" its actually quite simple.

Anyways..i havent visited this blog for a really long time, and i decided to do it this random nite, at 2.10 in the bloody morning. Certain occurences have kept me up, more negative then positive this time round. Many important aspects have left me in limbo, makin me feel useless and stagnant.I've hit a huge rock on the road and my journey has been forced to stop momentarily while i try to figure out how to get to my destination. i don't think anyone would respond to my calls as pople are busy with their lives. I never want to depend on anyone anyway, my believe is we lead and live our own life. if we fall, we get up instead of askin someone for help. if u hit a huge rock on an empty road and your engine stalled, you walk to the nearest gas station for help. No point waiting, it slows you down, and you can never be certain if you can actually trust someone enough to help you out. i never do. i have laid down on the ground waiting, and made many calls. i just don't want to be disappointed. Dont get me wrong, by all means if you happen to be that person with the larger hand or the successful call, stay the same. know that you are rare. I, just dont wanna be disappointed anymore.

Isnt' it ironic how sometimes the best person for you, the other half the maker has parted you from may be a perfect fit for you, but not your life? People hve lost the bestest of friends, their pet dogs or even family to conform with the one. Its sad...another roller coaster ride they live with. Sometimes, when you see a couple happy together, you wonder who theyve sacrificed to gain that aesthetic emotion... When you see someone single, you think about what they were not willing to part with or give...interesting i think. All this i'm sayin n one song keeps resonating in my mind.
"you make me happy, you magnify my better half"
"you make me certain, though all i have today is your photograph"

Something so simple yet so in depth. Emotions. Individual entitlements. Life.

 latest ramblngs at 10:57 AM